life.in.mono

Two days after I decided to look for this space I’ve been thinking and wanting for like 300 hours from now, I had this vision of what if this will be like forever or could this be really true. It’s been a very long time since I had my dinner alone (on a daily basis), I threw my things everywhere I want. As soon as I got home, I had this special bonding with my computer and most especially I spend more time on facebook, and I mean “more”.

Somehow, there are good things I realized now I have the chance again to live in mono. I can feel the sense of ownership of the space and everything that my eyes can reach within these four corners. I don’t have to worry about anything, anyone. It makes me feel like a lil mature enough to decide for myself, to take care of myself... cause nobody else will.

But it’s a bit sad. There’s no one you can share your laugh with or someone you can ask “anu daw?” in the middle of your movie marathon (cuz im a bit bingi, really.)

I miss living alone. But I miss living with him more than living alone.