Maligalig

"Ayaw pang matulog ng gabi sa kama kong walang silbi..." Hihikab hikab pero di makakuha nga tulog. Dont want to waste my Saturday night at home. Gusto ko masaya, may kwentuhan tapos kantahan. Kagaya ba nung una, nung umpisa. Kasi habang tumatagal, tumatahimik na... Parang nagiiba, wala ng gana. Mas gusto na lng magpahinga. Sana bukas na.... Para may bago na.

life.in.mono

Two days after I decided to look for this space I’ve been thinking and wanting for like 300 hours from now, I had this vision of what if this will be like forever or could this be really true. It’s been a very long time since I had my dinner alone (on a daily basis), I threw my things everywhere I want. As soon as I got home, I had this special bonding with my computer and most especially I spend more time on facebook, and I mean “more”.

Somehow, there are good things I realized now I have the chance again to live in mono. I can feel the sense of ownership of the space and everything that my eyes can reach within these four corners. I don’t have to worry about anything, anyone. It makes me feel like a lil mature enough to decide for myself, to take care of myself... cause nobody else will.

But it’s a bit sad. There’s no one you can share your laugh with or someone you can ask “anu daw?” in the middle of your movie marathon (cuz im a bit bingi, really.)

I miss living alone. But I miss living with him more than living alone.